Life...

I stat my third week of my internship today. I have interned/worked every day for the past week. I shouldn't complain because it's really good to be busy with stuff, today I'm not in the mood today to do anything. I have to say it could be that I might have pulled something in my back yesterday at work, instead of pulling my bicep muscles, I killed my back.


I leave for my trip on Wednesday at like 6 in the morning, I'm pretty much all packed with exception for a couple things. I can't decide which stuffed penguin I want to take. I want to take Lenny but he's a husky bird... Carl is not big into traveling ... and the little penguins I usually take are not as cuddly..... so I might end up taking Lenny. I am excited to go, although I'm nervous about taking a plane all by myself. I think I can do it! I'm not the most patriotic person but I think it will be interesting to be in another country over the 4th of July. I might keep a newspaper from the date to see like what kind of stuff is going on in another country while people back home are getting drunk, boating, having bonfires, and wearing alot of red, white, and blue. Perhaps there will be something in the news about our independence day and i'd like to see first hand how another country responds to hearing about the US in the news. It just might be interesting and a good learning experience.

I'm still waiting for my new license to come in the mail, I'm glad I didn't loose my passport or anything like that.


Also I'm sad that several well known celebrities have died in the past week or so and I really respect that there are those grieving and I finally will admit I am going to miss Michael Jackson. He really was talented ( I guess I only was familiar with the Thriller album and those songs really get over played so I get annoyed with them). My mom and I sat and watched some music videos on VH1 classic last night, he really was good and I should have given him more credit, I was just too judgmental about his appearance. He was a pretty damn good dancer and some of his less popular videos are in my opinion really creative and totally the kind of stuff you can watch over and over because they're so interesting.

Well I know everyone's stupid facebook status's are all about people dying I thought I would mention a problem that directly affects an entire country, democratic stuff etc. etc. and possibly US relation to Honduras(which I could go on about...). The Honduran president was basically kicked out of the country by the Military....

BBC Question and Answer Article giving a good description of the situation This came out June 29, 2009 ( today)

also
A CNN article about the situation in Honduras Dated June 28, 2009

FML

I lost my drivers license last night. Fuck... I have to pay for a replacement now. Ughh... NOT HAPPY AT ALL!

I felt so naked and alone without it today when I was driving to my new job, which I have to say is awesome. The brand spankin' new propane Zamboni at my new arena put the hunk of junk that my College had to shame, I know it's mean but seriously... this thing is badass...

Uh...

I'm lame...

I started my internship... that's about it.


I need booze.


I went to a baseball game... I am not into baseball... at all.

I never want to talk about parking downtown again...

thursday...the plan

6:30 AM- wake up
7:15 -10:30 Bloodbourne pathogen training

12:00 go to Augsburg and hang out with my friend from Mexico
2:00 Meet friend and go to prestons for food and booze
5:00 - Pick up skates

7:00-? party at Kari's but no drinking cuz i see the therapist friday...

oh god tomorrow is going to be a long day

it's 12:30 or so AM! Ahh

Another poem

Cats

they have fur
It's everywhere


Then I can't breathe
and that just sucks

They purr
They Meow
They even like to hiss

They poop in a box
who honestly does that?
Cat's that's who

They like to scratch
With those claws of doom
They like to sink them into your skin

what i'm trying to say
is
I really hate cats

Poem

Chmiel got me to write a poem and I have the perfect inspiration.

A Message To You
( for a certain jerk from California)

How do you live with yourself?
Do you really think this is good for your health?

To use
To manipulate
To lead us on?

Yeah you got the look
You got the hot 'bod'
You even got that sexy charm

But you wait for the right time
And you go in for the kill

Sure it might seem like a thrill

But to wake the next day
Full of shame
And possibly in pain

Knowing that you used us
Just another notch in the old belt


Do you really like all that fame?
That fame of
Oh he's a snake
Yeah he gets around

Even the guys call you scum
and even.. "oh he's a rapist"

You open your mouth
that too gets around

Guess who gets hurt
Not you
But we do

Brag all you want
but some day it will come
It will come full circle and bite you in the ass

So when you are feeling hurt and used
think of what you did
you used all of us
and hurt us

We won't feel bad
We might even be glad

The big question is
Will you actually learn a lesson?

Mad At Myself

I could tell the story, but we all know of my post graduation mistake from hell.

I hung out with a friend yesterday, and she filled me in on more info from that night... It's not her I am mad at and I really thank her for telling me stuff that I didn't know happened.

What makes me mad is that I made a bad mistake and this person ( not my friend) that was involved used me and I let that person use me. Yes I wasn't in the best state of mind but I knew I was making a choice, and I thought it would be fine considering we were all done with school etc. etc.

Having heard some stuff and getting picked on by some people for this mistake I made I just feel like I can only blame myself for being so stupid and I really really really regret doing this. I just feel so hurt and used by it and the fact that this person uses people and manipulates them is not ok and that makes mad and I feel really hurt by it. I am so mad at myself and I need to let it go, but I really want to tell this person that they can't use and manipulate people like this. It's really mean and disrespectful not only to the people being mistreated but I would think it's disrespectful to oneself by doing this. I would never want to be in the shoes of this person....

I am bored...

Here's a little update on my life these days


The Job Hunting Stuff
I got an internship ( most likely unpaid) with my cousin who is on city council for a large city in our state ( I think there's some confidentiality stuff I have to deal with so I'd rather not say the city). I will most likely start that job next week.

I got a part time job with a school district by my high school working at the two ice arenas in that area as a part time supervisor.
I start this job on the 21st, but I have to go down to HR and fill out some paperwork and stuff like that this week.

Skating Stuff


I tested my moves in May and did not pass, the plan is to test in August (I can't in July because that's the day I get back from Guatemala)

My coach wants me to do our local competition, which is kind of scary because I don't want to compete against little kids... but since I look like i'm about 18 or so it doesn't matter.

I'm getting my jumps back again, I do struggle with keeping my arms in and completing the rotation so that's a challenge, but I'm getting better.


Other Stuff

I hate guys, but I mean what's new?

We got a new laundry machine, it's really cool and nifty looking

I've been having alot of fun seeing friends lately.

I'm kind of hungry right now

I started reviewing my Spanish for my trip, I am so lazy though I need to motivate myself....


That's all I really have right now...

WTH Disney?!

I was taking a shower today and I was doing some thinking.


Disney I compliment you on making progress with the first African American Diseny Princess/Heroine in the new movie The Princess and the Frog

Where is the first Latina heroine/princess?!


So Far we have:
Snow white and Cinderella were written I think originally by the Brothers Grimm... I believe they were German
Ariel- a mermaid ( so we have those fish people represented)
Belle- She's French
Alice in Wonderland- She's white too
Sleeping beauty- Another pretty white girl
Jasmine from Aladdin- She's Arabic so we have the middle east represented
Pocahontas- We have American Indians represented ( I liked that movie)
Hercules- We got the Greeks
Mulan- She's Chinese
Lilo and Stitch- She was Hawaiian



Yes I know they made the Emperor's New Groove ( which is like the incas of South America and the main character was a guy!) But we need a Latina Heroine since the population of the US will mostly be Latinos within the next few years.


That's all I got...