Mad At Myself

I could tell the story, but we all know of my post graduation mistake from hell.

I hung out with a friend yesterday, and she filled me in on more info from that night... It's not her I am mad at and I really thank her for telling me stuff that I didn't know happened.

What makes me mad is that I made a bad mistake and this person ( not my friend) that was involved used me and I let that person use me. Yes I wasn't in the best state of mind but I knew I was making a choice, and I thought it would be fine considering we were all done with school etc. etc.

Having heard some stuff and getting picked on by some people for this mistake I made I just feel like I can only blame myself for being so stupid and I really really really regret doing this. I just feel so hurt and used by it and the fact that this person uses people and manipulates them is not ok and that makes mad and I feel really hurt by it. I am so mad at myself and I need to let it go, but I really want to tell this person that they can't use and manipulate people like this. It's really mean and disrespectful not only to the people being mistreated but I would think it's disrespectful to oneself by doing this. I would never want to be in the shoes of this person....