EWW....2009

The only reason I said ew was that I don't want to graduate... it will be 5 months from this Friday that I walk down that isle of the gym at the big A.

In other news, I'm going to be partying it up tonight..heck yes. No we're not going to the bars, we're going to be chilling at school.

I worked the last two days, and skated too..so i've spent alot of time at the rink. I finished my research proposal for Guatemala. Um I am pretty close to being packed...ha ha I have this little suitcase...it's way different than what I am use to using for trips.

I don't have that much going on lately. I had another strange dream last night.... it was weird.

I'll write probably again on friday before I head off to Guatemala.

BORED at the rink

So i was suppose to come in to work at 8:30 ish, but then they changed it to 9:30-1:30 shift. So yeah, then I find out I only get to do 2 resurfaces today! very upsetting! I'll find an excuse to do a 3rd resurface! Plus I have to hang around the rink waiting for my friend who's going to go to lunch with me around 2:15 ish Yay!

I have been having bad dreams lately. I know i had one about skating and one about work. The one I remember was where in my dream I finally got to talk to the person I had that falling out with. ( the only reason I want to talk to him is because I feel like I never got a chance to explain my side of what happened and it made me feel really bad that he gave me dirty looks all the time etc. and of course no one likes to be disliked. Especially over something so silly, I mean can't we grow up and move on?) Anyways so in my dream i guess I talked with him, I think i blanked out for part of it because the next part I remember he's yelling at me and telling me " F*** you " and " I hate you." I woke up rather upset.I felt really bad when I woke up and i'm actually kind of bothered by the dream.

I just got super tired all of a sudden. It's only like 11, I don't have a resurface till 12:45...how lame is that!


Anyways I leave in 5 days...

I leave in one week

Yep, I leave for Guatemala in one week.

things to get:

Electric converter for plugging stuff into the wall
bug spray
My sanity
Gifts for the family I stay with


In other news, I got like 4 hours of sleep last night,I seriously couldn't fall asleep. During those four hours of sleep I had a bad dream and I woke up kind of cranky. I hope I make it through work today, the screaming kid outside the rink office is totally not helping my mood.

I got my hair cut yesterday, saw KFlem, um started the dangerous task of cleaning my bedroom. I finished one book for my trip the other day, have half my research proposal written up and started the second book.

it's Christmas...not study time

You know you are a loser when you spend 2 hours reading/studying on Christmas day. Yep.

In other news I am watching one of my favorite movies, Surfs Up. The penguin surfing movie, I love it.

In other news It was Christmas today.Got some stuff. An igloo shaped cake pan...made a cake. Yes indeed.

We have dinner at like 6, then Um.... Stupid brother is coming over.

I'm chilling out with my stuffed penguin in the living room.

Yay my dad came in!

I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow, very exciting...i think I last got it cut in like May....yay!

I have a plush penguin sitting next to me

As I sit here I am soothed by the latin pop tunes of RBD. So that brings me back to my next point, I finally finished Rebelde! I fell sad that it's over, but I feel like I actually accomplished something!

We had an exhibition/competition yesterday we skated really well considering we totally just finished the program, we have tons of room for improvement. I'm so excited to make changes and to only just get better.

In other news I'm too afraid to tell my mom what my grades were for the semester. Yeah it was that bad. I've never done that bad in school in my life. My once half decent GPA ( well good by my standards) is now a shitty GPA....I am going to work my ass off next semester. So long social life.

I finally have some clean Laundry.

I need to do more studying for Guatemala and make up a list of things I need.



I had the worst head ache last night, I think i'm dehydrated. Anywho I'm at work right now and yeah well that's that. I feel too distracted to study today...its weird. I totally took my meds, yet i'm having a super hard time focusing. Tomorrow I can work my butt off hopefully.

Egads christmas is this week...well that's not good. I hate christmas music by the way...so don't play it around me....i can handle it in small quantities.

MEMORY LANE!!!!LMAO

So I'm on my dads computer and i'm going through the itunes library and well I've fond some weird stuff that i'm pretty sure i got back in the days of the Academy and perhaps my 7th and 8th grade years and perhaps earlier

Intelligence- by Alan Rickman ( yeah I can't remember what it's from but it's weird and well there's back up singers and his sultry voice)

B*Witched ...Remember that Irish girl pop band oh yeah I have some of that

BBMak- I loved them in 8th grade

Celine Dion- She's classic

Academy concert choir,women's/mens chorale.chamber choir, and quintents from 04-05'. Such hits include: Homeland, The boy who picked up his feet to fly, Elijah Rock. Amazingly I can remember my parts from these songs ha ha. Who can't forget the suffering of 'the prayer of the children.'

The bad ass irish music i skated to on OJ in synchro 9th grade

The Theme song from X-Men 2 ( i wanted to skate to this so bad...its just bad ass Annika skating music but there wasn't enough of it to cut for a good program)

Linkin Park...I enjoy their semi-dark yet good music

NSYNC...enough said

I'm too sexy - Right said fred

THE MARCH OF THE SINISTER DUCKS!!!! HELL YES

Sexbomb-Tom Jones

12 pains of christmas

Oh god.... THE THEME FROM THE MUSICAL HAIR!!!! HAIR

The theme for ducktales

A recording of monty pythons spam skit

HOLY SHIT I HAVE certian english teacher's recordings of old english

Ducktails was pretty much the highlight for sure though

Hungry Hungry Annika

My list of complaints:

1.I'm really sore from skating for some reason and our synchro dresses are hidious in my opinion.
2. I'm really hungry
3. I have a shit ton of work to do before January 2nd.
4. My room is a death pit and I'm suppose to clean it by christmas
5. I hate christmas music it's too ...just ...so obnoxious
6. WTF Target how the hell do you not sell hair nets ( we use them for skating to secure our buns in our hair) I went to Wallgreens instead.

My list of good things in life:
1. I'm on break
2. I started working on stuff for my trip/class
3. I survived my one final
4. I slept well last night and my bed was beyond cozy
5. I have lost approximately 10 pounds since the beginning of the school year. I was about 165 when i started school ( yes that's disgusting right?) and I weighed my self yesterday and I was I think either 152 or 150 I can't remember. Plus that was when I hadn't eaten in a while...so i'll guestimate 10 pounds or so. My pants are all alot baggier on me ha ha.
6. I got along with my boss at work yesterday

In other news I wish i had the movie anchorman on DVD it's funny.

Um ...that's all i got,

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p.s i'm watching rebelde again i'll start studying for guatemala tomorrow

Soo it's monday

Today was pay day, very exciting. I am 280.00 or so dollars richer.

Yeah so I have a test from 10:15-12:15 tomorrow then i'm free!!!! Well for a few hours at least, then it's back to the books to prepare for Guatemala.

I'm sitting in the Library right now waiting for my friend to come, but I really have to pee and I don't want to leave my stuff unattended. Ugh maybe i'll ask the people at the table behind me to keep an eye on it while I go. I know the one girl I had a class with her.

Ugh stupid bladder, maybe i'll wait till my friend gets here but that's like 45 min from now..ahh!


Annika's Attractive guy update: Yep saw the guy with the abs at lunch today ...yep that's all I got, no silly stories to go with that. I mean there's this other story but I think you'd get bored reading about it. ha ha.

I'm listening to " we are the champions" by Queen. Such a good power ballad. Oh i switched it to Little Red Corvette by Prince...wait it's now the Raiders of the Lost Ark theme...heck yes!

Good news! like Seriously this is awesome! Oh and Boys too!

Yeah say goodbye to my moderately good GPA. Yes I'm pretty sure i'll be getting a 1.0 or 1.5 in Spanish. But the good news is that I found out I will still get credit for that class! So i can graduate on time! Hells yes! Like seriously I want to do a funky awesome victory dance today. So i can drop that 5th class I picked up..thank god.

I went to chapel for the first time today in my life. They were celebrating Las Posadas basically its the mexican christmas. I sat with my friend who's el capitano of the womens hockey team ( she was my roomie sophomore year) . Then two of the mens hockey team captians and like another guy came and sat in front of us. I only knew one of the guys who was directly in front of me but the guy to his right...damn! he was cute! So this leads on to the next topic of this blog for today...

You know how when most normal girls are like 15 they go through the boy craze...well I finally figured out I'm finally going though it. As my friend Nissa says i'm a late bloomer. I mean there was that thing first year at the Academy ( I don't like talking about it much it's embarrassing) but that was just on one person. Plus that other person i had a crush on from sophomore year through senior year...which i never talked to the guy because he intimidated me alot for some reason.Haha. Now it's like every guy I see who's moderately attractive i'm like...OOOH BOY! HE'S CUTE ....IS HE SINGLE? I seem to be going for guys on the men's hockey team... it's like..."OOOHHH HOCKEY BOY!!!" It's so not like me at all...it's kinda hilarious I think my roommate gets a hoot out of me telling her about which cute guy i saw walking out of christianson center or the science building. Or a story like what happened on wednesday when the cute blonde guy from the hockey team with the creepy abs ( yeah he has a pic of himself on fb shirtless and well as my friend Morgan put's it " he looks like a ken doll" yes it's pretty creepy ) and how he was standing next to me in the lunch line ( which there are several) He had been in the line for hot food and then he moved to the cold sandwich like. Then I got too nervous to say hi to him..I was totally gonna ask him how hockey was going..but I totally chickened out and got distracted by the woman making my egg salad sandwich. I like egg salad its yummy! I saw him today at chapel, casually I just turned around to see who was sitting behind us and he was totally sitting about 7 rows behind us looking at me...i'm not paranoid I'm serious. ...I have more stories...but yea that's me and boys in a nutshell.


This brings back a good memory in 10th grade gym when we had dance unit. Aside from the possibly gay dance teacher who looked and spoke like he was latino but i found out he was really like European or something and apparently had a girlfriend or something told us to "1...2...3,...stalk.. your ..prey..behind.. the.. bush" when we learned tango. Remember how small our class was and that person I had a crush on was in the class. I remember telling Ruth " Oh, "chaz" is such a good dancer." Seriously Ruth looked at me like i was crazy. She says, "No he isn't ...?" it was a funny memory. So I thought I would mention it. Yeah I didn't want to use that persons real name. If you can't remember who it was i'll tell you sometime.

I'm going to see twilight again with my friends then we're going out for cocktails and appetizers! yay!

Ha ha ha ha yeah that's all i got now.

UGHHH

1. haven't slept in like 4 days
2. I caught another fucking cold
3. Pretty sure i'm going to fail spansh
4. have to take 5 fucking classes next semester so parents don't murder me
5. wait parents already fucking hate me
6. MY nose hurts...
7. yes it's 6 am i've been up since 5 can't sleep
8. Shoot me now

#^%^#$%&#

Yep i'm pretty sure i'm going to fail spanish this semester. I want to die.

So luckily i have time to save my ass and take a 5 class next semester so I can graduate.

I hate myself.

Well that was pure BS

Yeah i just pretty much BSed my spanish test. I hope to god I pass that class, if I get a 2.5 I will be dancing! Yes a victory dance will be held!

In other news:

They seem to change the blade on the Zamboni on thursdays and well it's a challenge the first resurface trying to get it right! It's so frustrating because no one really taught me about the blade of the Zamboni, I was told never to touch it. So My boss gave me a little lesson. They're gonna change it next Thursday when I'm at work too so I have to do it on my own...I'm scared.

I was target practice for jerk faced hockey boys at the rink yesterday ...I just ignored him. He's stupid and immature. He really needs to grow up.

I still haven't figured out who the hunk of man candy was who said hi to me at the rink on Tuesday...So frustrating!


So i got this adorable dress and wore it last year to the spring dance, and well i tied it on again this fall in late september/early october and after 20 min I couldn't get the damn thing to zip up, my boobs were officially too big! I was so mad. So i've been working on my eating habits and making sure I was moving around more. I tried it on last night and it zipped up! So exciting! So now I need an excise to wear the dress hahaha.

I'm getting my skates sharpened this weekend.

I am one month away from Guatemala

Creepily ( yes I know that's not a word) enough I leave for Guatemala one month from today! Holy crap that is ...like well scary!

Classes for next semester

Guatemala ( Jan 2 ( we meet for class ) we leave on the 3rd come back the 11th) Also it continues into 2nd semester
Social Psychology
Small Group Communication
Senior Keystone!

Oh I am dreading May 2nd 2009 11AM ( aka my graduation)

Yeah that's that.

Anyways I would complain about how crappy life is but I'm going to focus on the positive.

-We got more people on the synchro team.
-I've lost 5 and a half pounds according to the scale at home. GO ME!
-A super hot hockey guy said hi to me at the rink yesterday, I was waiting to talk to the coach about having the players not spit in the players boxes because the figure skaters have to walk through there and would prefer not to walk through their spit wads. I was all decked out in my hot pink dress, tights, long sleeved t-shirt and black vest.Oh and to add to the dorkyness my ugg boots which are really needing to be replaced. So the hockey guys were getting off and some guy, who was super cute said hi. I can't remember if I said hi back, I think I did. I was too mezmorized by his man charm. I can't remember if I've even met the guy ......i wish i had turned around and seen what number was on the back of his helmet so i could figure out who he was. Darn!
- I slept late today...should have gotten up at nine like a good girl..but no...i wanted to sleep!

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Toilet paper

Doesn't it suck when you're out of toilet paper? Like i'm serious...we are out of toilet paper and I had to go downstairs and use the "public" bathroom in our building. Not cool at all....well better than no toilet paper...ha hah

Anyways I'm already excited for christmas break. that's all I have to say.

It's been a while

I'm home for thanksgiving, well not officially till wednesday. I'm home though, I skipped my art class today, yes i'm bad ass. I didn't have sociology my prof is out of town. I do have to go back tonight for a zam staff meeting and um I do have spanish tomorrow. It shouldn't be that bad.

Except, my mother has done nothing but criticize me the moment i came in the door last night, so i'm pretty much ready to pack my bags and spend the holiday locked in my room. Also she interrogated me about if i was dating anyone I told her no, which is true and that there are no cute guys at school. Then she proceeded to tell me that I probably won't meet any/many guys after college. Way to be supportive mom...way to go.

I actually cleaned my room at school, it looks really nice, better than the death pit I am sitting in right now aka my room at home.

I need to see the movie Twilight. I've read the first three books and i'm almost done with the 4th. the fourth one...is...in my opinion not the best book ever written. I also need to see the movie Madagascar 2... Yea that's all I got for now.

I have ADD

I know that's not new, but I am the worlds biggest slacker. That's all I must say. Apparently reading books about vampires who sparkle in the sunlight is more important.

I wish i had something exciting to talk about.

My room is messy.

Yeah I just dropped my minor

Yep with one class left to go I dropped my minor. What...why? you ask. I couldn't take spanish 312 which i had planned to take I couldn't take it becuause it's during Com 355...guess what fucking Augsburg doesn't offer another spanish class that's over 212. My parents arn't gonna pay for me to come an extra semester...so I dropped the minor. Yep and my mother is furious with me... I told her to go to hell...I haven't talked to her since. ... she basically told me the only way i'm going to get a job with my major is if i speak spanish. 1.) I can hardly speak the damn language and I hate it anyways 2) My advisor told me I have a COM major plus the HR part...and she told me that covers a variety of fields...

So with that note...I'm going to go curl up in the fetal position with Carl ( my stuffed penguin)

I need to motivate myself to do my art project...it's lame!!!! Also I went to St.Cloud last night to watch synchro, then um I went to bed.I had skating this morning and then i went grocery shopping and went to the book store and bought the second Twilight book called new moon.

That is all

Things are looking up

So, I got a 74 on my sociology test, that's good enough for me ha ha.

In other news, so I had this issue with a guy, and it went to hell and back. Found out the guy lives across the hall from me, but i've just never seen him in my building till this week ( what a cruel twist of fate I know). The thing is keep running into the jerk, and every time i see him I get the dirtiest looks from him. I mean some on we're not 13 years old anymore, we're like 21 I think we can get over the whole "dirty look" stage and be responsible adults. I guess its obvious he can't .

Ughh the puppies got in the mud my mother is now making me dry them.

Oh also i read the "twilight" book ..you know that's gonna be a movie. Such a chick book but I love it. That Edward Cullen is a dreamboat. I wish there were more men as ...captivating as he is. ha ha

Sunday

I'm stressed out and it's my own fault. I procrastinated and now it's coming to kick me in the ass. I have a sociology test on tuesday and I started studying for the test today. I know by some people's standards it's early but for me that is extremely late to study for a test. Then i was all pissed because i had come back to school last night thinking my friends and I were going to hang out, No it didn't happen, I was pissed. But then i realized it happened for a reason, I'm going to challenge myself to not go out and party or drink at all this month. Except for maybe thanksgiving at my aunt and uncles. So i'm mad at myself, mad at some people and just plain cranky. Halloween was ok, I just woke up morbidly depressed the next day for some reason. I hate dressing up.

Friday I also worked before going out it was the most fun I have had at work all year. Seriously I had a blast. I was pissed to leave the hockey game to go out with people. But i still had fun when I went out. I should go before it gets too dark, i need to find some food, I'm thinking Jimmy Johns.

Ehhh

I'm feeling really down today

Ouch!

I got dragged to a halloween dance on campus yesterday..it sucked. I wore heels and i have the biggest blister on my foot ever...and i'm suppose to dress up again tonight...arghhh!


Anywho that's life for now

I had plenty of time to do my spanish and i didn't do it ...im bad ass

They posted my video/new story on the A-net webpage. basically the web page that only student and faculty and staff can look at, at my school. I looked so bad in that video..and there's one shot where my eyes were all shifty looking hahahah.

Yeah didn't do my spanish. i am so unmotivated to do school work, that sucks!

yes I'm going out for halloween, my friends are making mego to shout house..and yes i have to dress up in my can can girl costume. It's cute.

New Plan of action

While I sit here procrastinating i.e not reading for soc or painting for art class. I have some new goals for november.

1. Stop drinking/going out/partying it really screws up your sleep pattern ex. i fell asleep around 4 this morning woke up at 11 bad Annika
2. Avoid the opposite gender completely except for gay friend kevin. ex. i can do this by not going out
3. Be more mature at work. That can be easily done, just think ahead and think smart.
4. Focus on school, skating, and work ...no distractions.
5. Clean room...it looks like a tornado went through there
6. Eat a little more healthy....no midnight snacking

that's all i got.

I have already made plans for halloween, I am not participating in any celebrating what so ever. Yes i had great adorable classy sexy yet not slutty costume and i'll just save it for next year.

Ok have a wonderful day, 8 days till election,i'm nervous! Also 8 days till my next sociology test....i'm screwed

It's been a rough month

October has been a really rough month for me, I can't wait till november so i can start fresh and positive and i don't know what else to say. I've made some mistakes and i'm just ready to start fresh.

I'm watching figure skating on tv...very exciting I know right? I actually have some reading to do for sociology and some um art i need to revise a tree picture and make it spooky in celebration of halloween.

I want to go down a hole and die

I want to go down some large hole and die....

Things are looking up

Although the guy i met saturday never called me back i think i'll live. Disapointing (sp) yes... depressing ehh... anywho i have that meeting with my boss tomorrow and yeah um i know what it's gonna be about and i'm cool with it. The other rink manager and I are on good terms now. My news story went well, watch channel 5 at 3 pm this friday. I'm really hungry right now, that sucks.

Yeah...so that's life for me ha ha.

Ugh

My meeting with my boss is tomorrow, i am freakin' nervous.

I have a head ache...i've been studying all night...working towards my midterm.

I can't sleep

It's like 2:15 am on a monday .... yeah I can't sleep at all, i'm like hyper. I thought i was tired but then i dunno. Anyways I had another crazy night, um i can't really say much but it was crazy. Well i better try to get some sleep

Let me explain...

I was on the news website site and they wanted people to e-mail in about odd jobs. I have an odd job so i e-mailed them thinking it would be fun and didn't think that they would actually get back to me. They did. So I asked my boss Mr.P ( that's what we're gonna call him) if we could do it ..they ( Mr.P and that bitch who works there during the day Ms. K ) basically told me i'd freak out and crash and that i'm not good enough plus they'd have to go through the PR office at the big "A "( my school) and it sounded like neither wanted to do that. Then they got pissed because i didn't ask if i could e-mail the news. I wasn't aware I was suppose to ask them something like that, no one told me. I apologized and said i'd call the guy back at the news and say no So i told the news we couldn't do it but if they really wanted to they could contact the big "A" PR office and see if they wanted to do it. I couldn't guarentee anything. So the news called the PR office and they thought it was an awesome thing and they'd like to have the news come in. So we're filming wednesday.

So then i got an e-mail from my boss cuz hes super pissed at me and I have to have a meeting with him. I was freaking out all Thursday night ( even at the bar for a while) thinking he was gonna fire me and that would have been bad. But now that i think of it he'd probably want to meet sooner if he wanted to fire me plus he wouldn't have e-mailed me about the scheduling meeting if he was gonna fire me. I'm just super scared. I had no intention of upsetting anyone and I feel awful about this whole situation.

In other other news I had a wild thursday night it involved some....um...err... fun...that's all I will say.

I went home last night got the best night of sleep i have had in a long time, it felt good, Fall break is next week but my parents will be out of town so i can't really go home . Well i could because my bro and his gf will be there but i can't stand them when they're together, so i'll be at school working and stuff.

sad day

I just wish none of this would happen and that things were back to normal.
I wish i could run and hide somewhere and not come out.

Ok woah that go out of hand

That drama i had was awful, so effing distracting..it got way out of hand. Oh well we learn from our mistakes.

I have a cold, i havent done spanish at all this week, excpet for what was due monday. that's bad of me. I'm so going to focus on homework this weekend assuming i don't party too much. I gotta stop partying it's not good. Way not good.

I had a good day

Despite making a complete ass of myself last night i had a good day today. I mean it did start off with a hang over, but i got some homework done and yeah it was pretty cool. I went to jimmy johns, hung out with morgan for a while and yeah . I'm bored now I could finish my art but I don't want to.

Why am i so lame??

I'm having a "annika pity party " right now...you seriously do not have to pity me it's so not worth it. ha ha.

Had for the most part a fun night last night and then it got crappy at the bar. Anywho yeah that's all i got.

My room is a disaster lol.

Good tuesday until...

My tuesday was fantastic: I went to art class and started a good drawing, participated in class discussion, and went to dance and had lots of fun.

So this is where it got bad.

ok so i usually get to the rink early before skating cuz i like to clear my head before i skate and strech and just chill get in the zone its a mental thing and sometimes i just come right from class and whatever. Sometimes I go into the rink office where my boss "P" is and the week day supervisor "K" are to avoid this really annoying kid and her mom.

So K is the athletic facilities manager for the ice arena and simelby. She's not my boss but is considered a superior.

So i went to the office today and i asked if i could hide from annoying people... She snaps at me and starts yelling at me. Basically she said : I don't care if they're annoying then why do you get here so early"

I reply " it's a mental thing plus i just came from class." and then

She's yells back " I dont care...!"

then I was like ( as politely as possible ) well if you don't want me here i can leave ...would you like me to leave?
She yells back " No i'm leaving" and continues to yell at me as i ask "P" ( my boss) if he would like to me to leave. He said he had to leave so i said , ok i'll leave then. she continues to yell at me as i walk out.

First of all i think it was highly unprofessional of her to yell at me. Second, what did I do to piss her off so badly? third: she could have just said " look we're really busy could you come by some other time and leave right now? " I am not five years old and i shouldn't be treated that way. I'm really upset with this lady.

I am so mad because that was so unprofessional and i think i deserve an apology

In other news i have a sociology test tomorrow, i'm really not ready for it but i'm working on it.

No one answers their phone....

Yeah no one answers their phone.

I worked out this morning and i guess I'm going to go work out again tonight with two other friends. I hate tuesdays, i am absolutely dreading tomorrow. I'm freezing too. Anywho i wish i had something exciting to write about. I'm watching family guy. Not that excited trust me.

Workin' at the rink

I'm working at the rink, it's not to busy so its a good day to be tired. It's homecoming today, so my friends and I are going to hangout! I'm excited for that. My week didn't go very well, I shouldn't have skipped spanish it would have benefited me to go, so I'm getting together with a friend or two on sunday to go over what i missed and what is due on monday. I was suppose to go to this thing downtown at some night club last night with my roommate but she sorta bailed on me. I was bummed, then my friends said I could go to Shout House with them, it's got dueling pianos, way fun, just google it and you'll learn more. I'm surprisingly not hung over, well maybe I am...I can't tell because I didn't sleep too well last night so that makes it hard to tell hah.

Ok one more and im done

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Heres another for the heck of it

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Bad day!

I lost a dollar at the vending machine today ...i really wanted a twix bar. bastard machine.

A student at my school was shot and killed today, I didn't know him personally but I'm so sad for his family. I hope they can make it through this.


All the guys ganged up on me at the zam meeting and were total ass holes to me, my boss included. I'm really mad about it and can't sleep because of it.

I have shit going on from 8am -9pm tomorrow i think i'll be skipping a class....then most likely take a mental health day on wednesday.

More cowbell again...yeah i can't sleep

I was on that cowbell site

I found this :

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and i made this one:

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it sounds kinda good....



and this one

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I am so mad at myself

There are so many things i can find wrong with myself.

This will cheer me up a bit i hope...

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New puppy

My parents got a second puppy, she is Teddy's litter mate aka his sister. My parents named her tiger lilly aka lilly. Go to my Fb and see pictures. I can't wait to go home this weekend and play with them.

Still Sore

Went out and partied last night, totally had fun. Found a cute guy from school, but then found out he has a girlfriend. So that just wont fly with me, gotta find a new guy damn. I wasn't hung over today surprisingly i just nearly fell asleep in spanish. i worked out this morning um then i skated this afternoon, that went pretty well could have been better. Anyways um I'm starving sore from a fall in skating. I'm suppose to meet with my CA and go over the housing agreement with my roomie, um yeah she isn't here i haven't seen her since last night. Um i'm super sore from working out every day this week, I'm wondering if i lost any weight though. Probably not.

In other news spanish is going well, so i everything else...i think.

Life sucks

8-11:10 Art
11:10-11:50 Lunch if the line isn't too long... today it was too long
11;50-1:20 sociology
1:30-3 Intro to dance

Then relax/ do homework 3-4
4-6:30 skating
6:30-now or 8 ish

i'm tired, i don't sleep when i'm at school and i pulled every muscle in dance today

anywho i appear to be watching ghost busters of some form. wait now im watching a prison show...

P.s i hate politics

p.s.s i suck at life

I did all this crap today and i still can't sleep

I got up at 10 ( maybe that's where the problem lies)
Worked out
ate a small lunch studied spanish
went to spanish
3:30-5 studied spansish
5:45 Spanish and sociology homework
8:45 BSed my Soc. time to relax
11:40 can't sleep..damn

I'm like hyper...damnit


I'm hungry too

And so the awkwardness continues!

Yeah so that whole situation yeah i'm getting over it. Enough said.

In other news it was my first day back at work yesterday it was good,i probably talked too much to my boss. He's cool though. I'm totally not wearing my tennishoes again i'll wear my work boots next time to work. Oh and there's a new driver he's super cute...but I have this policy that i don't date people i work with. Oh well.

Um I survived my first day of spanish, except realized i might not get to minor unless i spend another semester at the big A. Yeah they aren't offering a culture class for me to take next semester and so um i need to take a culture class to get that minor ...so i e-mailed the language department chair so maybe she could help me out. Sociology is going to be a hard intro class, the teacher doesn't talk loud enough that bothers me. Dance is gonna be fun. And art should be too.

Anywho, I am super hungry and my friend is suppose to call me soon.

Sorry it's been forever

Um, remember how I kept whining about how i felt my friends ( the auggie ones) were ignoring me well i wrote a note on FB, explaining how i was afraid to confront some people about how i felt. I named no names etc. Well i got a message from one of those people and she figured out it was about her. Here are the basics of the message.

1. She has been deliberately ignoring me all summer
2. She think's i'm annoying
3. She thinks I use my ADD as an excuse for my behavior and that i should be taking medication ( which i do)
4. She and my other friend think i'm an alcoholic.

Here's what I think.
1. That was mean to ignore me and that i should have confronted her instead of write the note ( i deleted that)
2. If i'm being annoying you gotta tell me so, so i can fix what i'm doing wrong
3. I am immature at times, but I have never used my learning disability as an excuse for it, i will catch my self some times and recognize when i'm being ADD but i never use it as an excuse
4. I may drink too much sometimes when confronted with alcohol but I am no alcoholic

Then

I got a message from my other friend explaining the whole alcohol thing. She basically gave me some advice and said people are talking about me at parties.

I replied and said hopefully i've mellowed out since tuning 21 ( i haven't hung out with anyone who really drinks all summer except for when i went to florida and went to a bar once) and that i'd take her advice. I also said if people are talking they should be talking to me not behind my back.

So i was pretty much in tears reading these messages ..wait sobbing yeah thats more like it. So i'm kinda mad at these people and they invited me to a party tonight. I'm not going to drink because now i know that this whole time they've been judging me and if I drink at the party they'll be judging me there. Also i haven't seen any of them all summer and I think it's just gonna be awkward. So i'm being negative now and saying I don't wanna go.

Did i mention that in the messages they didn't want to ruin the friendship by these notes?

Things going on lately

1. Cousin is getting re-married today
2. Still have eye infection
3. Going to twins game on wednesday
4. Have been madly playing word twist on book of face
5. Going to lake next week,not excited at all since no one fun is coming up with us (my cousin isn't coming so i'm kinda mad)
6. Saw Mamma Mia twice, i liked the broadway play way better. Pierce Brosnan can not sing...he can act but can't sing ....
7. Went shopping
8. Learned how to use cash register at work in just an hour...feels like i didn't learn a thing and then they now expect me to use it on Sunday...im terrified.
9. Need to improve my attitude when skating...need to be more positive and attack my jumps and spins
10. Wishing school would start

Just a work story

So i had this lady come into AE and she picked out some mens jeans, and well I didn't say anything assuming that's just the jean style she liked because some women like mens jeans and also we arn't suppose to tell the customer what style or gender jean they should buy..you know what i mean? ...anywho...i spend a half hour in the fitting rooms helping her with the jeans then she's like these are womens jeans right? i'm like no...and she has a fit. It's not like i could do anything...so i help her with womens jeans...she gets annoyed with me even though i was being super nice and helpful. She has another co-worker help her who is my manager....later i go up to my manager and explain what happened, and she's like " it's not your fault at all" she was so nice about it. I was afraid i was gonna get yelled at.

Sad day

My guinea pig died yesterday. I cried.

I have a final tomorrow for HR management.

My head hurts.

I have a cold in june!

It's really just a mild cold. I'm bored, i did my case studies for class on tuesday, i really should be reviewing for the midterm, but i'm having a hard time motivating myself.

The big 21 is in 4 days!

How exciting is that?

I have been sitting around for about a half a month doing absolutely nothing, aside from an eye infection and skating occasionally I might have a new job with a store in the mall. They just have to call my references and yeah ....how exciting! In other news never talk to me about boys/men again. They are stupid. Also i got new blades on my skates, um what else? I have to wear my glasses till the eye infection is gone... yeah its lame but I'm in a good mood. so that's good right?

I've got ADD

heck yes, i can't focus on studying for my final..... well it's a test. Then i get to move home on Thursday how exciting right? Yeah so that's all thats going on in my life ha ha . I'm pretty lame.

It's the last week of classes! and a silly story...well sorta

So i had the best weekend ever, the dance was on friday and i had a blast, and then the concert was on saturday and i met the lead singer and hung out with him for a while. On of my fav. bands came to play at school this weekend. It was so exciting! I finished my paper yesterday and yeah. I hope I do well on it.

I met this guy, in an unusual way let's just say that. I'm friends with him on Fb. We've been talking for a while like sending messages back and fourth and he seems really nice, and not to mention he's pretty darn good looking. I'm serious way better looking than anyone back the day that I liked. My friends who have seen the pictures of him think he is attractive...so i'm not just being crazy. Anyways I sent him a message with my number and said we should meet ( my friends convinced me to do this when i was ...not sober) right so the next day i was like...oh boy you made an ass of yourself this time Annika. I checked my inbox and there was a message from him. He was like, thanks for the message what are you doing this week? I freaked out to be honest. I totally didn't expect that from him. But anyways i told him to call me and we could figure something out. So I'm waiting for that call ha ha. So i would explain more ....but yeah.


The summer job search is not going well. I can't go back to the deli because they're not hiring. I'm not going back to VS because that sucked and i can't work at the rink because i'm not a guy. I applied for a job on campus... i hope they call me! That would be so cool!

Yeah dance party

There was a dance part in the main building today at school it was hosted by our radio station...i didnt dance...im a shy dancer.

Anyways I have to get to class soon, but i thought i would tell the story of the dance party. I was surprised that the dancing was G rated which was good.

My nose is stuffy

Spring Break Heck yes

Yea thats right im on spring break! Yeah im happy, I've actually cleaned up my room a little. I have to work tonight, which i dont wanna go, but i think it will give me something to do tonight instead of being really bored.

Im sore and ready for break

Im sore from yoga and working out. I have a paper due on friday which is actually almost done :) Then I have an acting thing tomorrow which i should totally go and practice for but yeah . Then after my paper is due on friday i can go on break! yay

Speech tournament

Went to my first tournament in 3 years last night, two rounds and a final round. Got a 1 in the first round, got an effing 5 in the 2nd round. Anyways kinda ticked off about that. Right.

Saturday was a disaster, now my friend thinks im a borderline alcoholic. Makes me feel great about my self. hah. anyways if you wanna discuss this topic further with me i'll discuss it.

Yo Yo Yo..im gonna be punked

Yeah i'm going to a punk themed party tonight and I'm looking forward to that. It's gonna be fun times with my friends yeah. No drama this time. I'm totally over what happened two weeks ago....yeah i can't believe that was two weeks ago. Anywho I was looking at all my year books from the days of old, aka high school and people wrote such nice comments.Also i looked like a freak freshmen year ha ha . anyways i miss the good old days of the academy i had good times with people.

Right so less than two hours i can go to my party im super excited!

I withdrew from spanish

I withdrew from spanish...yeah thats about all i got.

Plus im pissed at a friend for not being upfront with me about somthing.

also we're going ice skating on friday :) yay!

I should have seen it coming...

When will this stupid drama end! I just want it to end. I feel bad about myself because of it and I feel stupid and immature about it. I should have seen it coming from the moment I encountered some things/people/places/situations or whatever. I should have seen it coming, how stupid am I? I mean it was just bound to happen and I had to be a stupid girl and let my "emotions" get in the way.

I have started to work out in the gym, so I'm gonna do that two days a week ( on the days I don't skate). It's mostly going to be cardio stuff and abdominal stuff, just so I can start to lose some weight. I went to work out today and it made me feel better about myself. Also working last night did too, I was in a good mood at work and i told myself positive uplifting things when I drove the zamboni. I was like " Annika you're awesome and what other girls at school can drive a zam? none..that i could think of." Anyways I'm also listening to some Quietdrive and it's making me feel better.

I get to work tonight I'm excited my boss and I are cool with each other since our falling out last week, he didn't want to edge rink B last night so we got to go home earlier and i was like, " you're my buddy!" jokingly of course and he laughed.

Woah I've lost my appetite!

Yeah i think its because i was sick yesterday with sorta food poisoning but today I hardly touched breakfast, because it was really gross and i have hardly touched my lunch. Maybe I'm still sick. Or maybe I'm just that upset about the weekend, I don't feel that upset right now i mean when I think about it i get upset and mad at myself not mad at another person about what happened. But wow, I just don't feel like eating. Thats not like me at all, i love to eat and i get hungry all the time. I don't know what it is but I need to snap out of it and do something! I have a job fair to go to tomorrow for crying out loud.

In other news I worked this morning it was fun I'm actually kinda tired but thats ok, i'll survive.

I went to a party ...it didnt go well

Yeah it was not cool at all. Yeah I would the story but I don't know who reads this so I suggest you just ask me for the story in person or via e-mail.

Im feeling better i think, by talking to people it's helping alot

Im so stupid

Yeah it[s 6 am and i havent slept...so basically yeah. rejection sucks its a bitch..... thats all i gotta say.

Work...

So this is my first time working since tuesday when I had that falling out with my boss. it's going well, I'm getting homework done which is a good thing. Yeah I should get back to my homework. Im going a party tonight I'm super excited. But I shouldn't be because I don't wanna expect something to happen and then it doesn't happen and then be disappointed. I just wanted to get that out there.


So my new favorite song is :

Solo quédate en Silencio by R.B.D ( yeah they're from my new favorite telenovela Rebelde) I should really translate it when I have the time.

My classes are going ok this semester. Spanish is incredibly hard and i just want to curl up in the fetal position whenever I am in that class. Persuasion is decent, i need to devote more time to it, bus and prof writing is boring, and theatre class is cool.

I saw school play last week, I thought it was ok not great but not bad. some of the acting kinda bothered me , but what do I know about good acting, i can't act. In other news i partied on saturday managed not to be a dumbass and call anyone ...its a smart thing just not to use your phone when partying. Unless your contacting someone to go to another party. My poor roommate got ditched by all her friends i feel bad for her. Yeah i really don't have anything going on in my life.

Oh yeah boys are a big distraction...i haven't had that distraction for like 2 years now because I haven't found any cute ones, anyways i thought i would get it out there tell it like it is, they are distracting. Bad for when you're trying to focus on school. But then again it's a natural thing to be attracted to someone so i guess I have to suck it up and take it like a man.

Yeah that's life ....

skating is going ok, could be better but it could he a heck of a lot worse. I'm managing to jump a little and lift my whale sized body off the ice ha ha.

Im in a good mood

Yeah I am in a good mood! I guess i just had fun with my friends last night. Oh yeah alex that was a good phone call on friday very amusing.

I have a band aid on my finger so its really hard to type. So I'm not gonna really type much here. Yeah I'm good. I promise i will write more when my finger has healed.

I have a really good reason to be upset

So i had problems finding a roommate for this year and i didn't want to have to go through the housing lottery again like i did last year. I asked a friend if i could live with her and she said she was sure i could but told me to remind her. I sent her facebook message and she didn't get back to me finally i sent her another and i learn that she got someone else to live with them. I am so angry right now. I don't know what to do ...i just don't. I feel so left out and i feel like no one wants to be my friend. All my other friends are living with each other. So im fucked....

I just want to cur up in the fetal position and cry

Things are looking up

yeah after the whole Nicaragua thing Im finally starting to find time for other homework and i can now focus on that. I wiped out on my way back from spanish today i'm kinda sore from that.

Google search - rebelde

only the best telenovela out there omg its like super addicting

F*&^ Español

OMG , spanish has never been so hard before. I have a 12 page reading plus 11 questions of spanish and it's hard ...really really hard. I think i'm gonna have a mental freak out soon. the first assignment was manageable and its already the second one and im going to have a cardiac. I worked with the tutor but i just didn't understand enough and felt like he was translating the whole damn time. Plus he made me read aloud and i suck at spanish it's official !!!!! Argh i want to kick something.

I also need to study for a test on friday.

Papers sucks

Im writing an eight page paper! yikes! Yeah I'm about half way through it, but I feel like it's missing some stuff and i don't know what. Oh well i'll figure it out. It sucks being back in school.

Back from Nicaragua

Over all I would say that this was a great trip. I didn't really like everyone I was with but I think the trip made up for that. I had a bit of a culture shock I will admit and it was a rough thing for me to go through, so i was more shy than usual with people, so I think that was an attribute to the not getting along with everyone thing. I was being too sensitive at times and i should have just taken a deep breath and chilled.

So Um, since I last wrote we did a ton of things while in Nicaragua. We visited Granada, Leon, Masaya, and Esteli. We visited a coffee co-op. I got bitten by a monkey, I promise there's a good story to go with that. We met with a FSLN commander who was a woman,she was awesome. We went to a volcano. We stayed at the beach which was really fun. I got eaten alive by bugs. They're huge in central america and leave nickel to quarter sized bites. It was upsetting we didn't get to meet with some people we were planned to meet with though so we'll see how that affects my paper.

I posted pictures on the book of face.

Greetings from central america

Yes I am typing on a spanish keyboard I even have an ñ key. Thats pretty sweet! anyways im already sick of the people on this trip i am starting to get depressed and distancing myself from everyone. We went to a discotech ( yes a discotech) last night and I felt really excluded becuase no one wanted to really dance with me...by they way non of them can salsa worth damn. So I just feel like everyone i really clicky and that im just the odd one out. This always seems to happen to me, it sucks.

In other news we went to a volcano today and we went to a market and the city of Granada. It was pretty cool. Tomorrow we are going to a cooperative of some type and then we are going to the embassy. Im really excited.

We´ll im gonna go get ready for bed. Not that enyone cares they´re all to busy drinking rum and smoking cigars to care. I will write again.

Visualize whirled peas

I'm in a bad mood. I'm not having dinner. I like whirled peas. Ha ha its funny. I leave on friday.